Friday, November 24, 2006
Miserable.. Mii
ii Dunno y money iz mre important than luv.
i dunno y i hate my life so much.
i dunno y true fwend iz alwaes hard 2 fiind..
ii haf been tinkin so many question tiz few dae, weird question overcum my mind.
ii juz dunno y i tink money iz mre important than luv.
mayb iz bcoz i gain xperience frm my stead larx, stead n break de process.
iz lyk... if i lyk a guy, i wil try all my best 2 jio ova dat guy, wait 4 him 9 mthx, 10 mths even 1 yr oso cn. but when dat guy accept euu le, euu mayb wil stil lyk dat guy, but luv fadin quite fast.
den when dat guy ask 4 break mayb cuz of sum reason, euu wil feel sad larx n try all ur best 4 it 2 patch.
but when patch le, feelin 4 dat guy wil juz suddenly lost, totally lost....
tiz iz wut i xperience all the tiime 4 my stead larx, dunno y.....
den i dun cre 4 luv le, cuz nutin 2 cre bout larx.
den i tink money mre important, cuz money cn buy so so many ting wut luv cudnt achieve.
all my fwend de ans iz diff frm mine, but tiz iz my mind.
dunid judge mi by dat ii m money face or wuteva.
ii m... so wut???
den ii oso hate my life so much. coz wuteva i do, i m stil a failure.
looks so ugly, character so bad, study worse each yr....
i m juz a complete failure. nutin much i cud simply achieve.
kor mi stupid, kor mi anitin euu lyk, cuz i agree on dat.
y iz it dat true fwend iz hard 2 find?? :'(
pri sch mayb haf sum, but tiz yr i fought wif her, den ii kip cursin her, scoldin bad word. cuz i alreadi ren ta hen jiu le...
den even though i haf lots of fwend in sec 1, but no true fwend.....
iz lyk gt 4 person, den when turn 2 partner.
2 of my fwend wan 2 partner wif another 1. den i anitin larx.
den when dat 1 gurl chose hu 2 partner le, den dat other gurl cum partner wif mi...
iiz lyk ii m so xtre, everytime when 1 person dun haf partner, jiu lai zhao wo.
take mi s wut?? dai ti ping?? everytime oso liidat, i reali had enough of all tiz le.
den when i wan go out, everytime... ii ask mre than 30 ppl 2 go, but all iz either cannot or dun wan. y iz it even so hard 2 ask dem out........
ii reali hate 2 b in tiz sch..
ii realli wish upon a star dat ii haf a damn truful fwend. hu wil alwaes b dere when i nid her, n in return i wil do so... but, iit iiz so hard 2 find 1.
if i m nt in tiz sch, mayb i wil find 1, but in tiz sch.... iz totally impossibl3
den 1 mre ting wich i tink ii m realli beri stupid.
guyz hu lyk mi 4 so long le, i nw den noe...
nt 1 onli leh, quit3 lot... but nw i den noe
cn ani guy tel mi dat wutz in all of 3uu all de mind de?? plz....
ii hope dat guyz wil b truful 2, dunnid b shy de
ii m lyk a idiot... past de ting, nw den noe.. Y???
y iz my life so miserable.
cn ani1 b dere when ii m in nid?? no, i guess.....
i realli wish 2 jump down frm my hse nw... 2 end my life.
cuz livin in tiz world, loneliness iz stil filin my world......
i realli nid sum1, 2 b dere..... when i nid...
plz jesus, grant mi tiz wish :'(
you're my first <3
4:01 AM
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Ytd Outiin
Haiiz, Here 2 post about ytd de outin, hahax
~~YTD~~
Went out wif hannah, sheralynn n joycelyn. at first hannah was 2 ask many ppl 2 go de, but lyk all iiz co de, den dey muz go sch, den nw bcum onli we 4 go.
we went orchad tiz all larx.
eh, ii 4gt we go whr watch movie le, but dat movie ok larx, kinda of funny, den the whole cinema, laught the loudest de iz stil we 4, hahax.
b4 we went 2 cinema, we bought sum food outside in larx, hahax, den we was lyk lookin 4 the cinema larx, cuz iiz lyk beri damn hard 2 fiind siiax. aniiwae inside the cinema, quite kool lorx, the lite..
after we watch the movie, we went shop around, but we cn onli c niax, cuz no money. hahax. after we shop awhile, we went sakae sushi n eat, yummy siax. n spend a total of onli bout $22 plus siiax, hahax.. sibei yummy lorx, nxt tym ii wan briin many many money go eat until stomach burst larx, hahax.
den after all tiz, we was walkin 2 the orchad mrt larx, cuz hannah haf 2 go hme, den joy nid 2 go mit her mother n mi wif sheralynn was goin hme niiax. hhax. on our wae walkin 2 the mrt, we 4 took sum photo 4 memory larx, hahax. stand at the side of the road take, den so many ppl lool at us, krazy de. take photo cannot ah?? wiil diie meh? or dey nv c ppl take photo b4, ii was lyk diiaoiin at dose ppl hu lyk gt laugh de lorx, or kip lookin de, sibei ....... haiiz
mi n sheralynn on our wae back hme iiz lyk kinda of boriin, cuz we 2 niiax, den lyk nutin 2 tok bout, hahax. but wish n hope dat nxt time we 4 cn go out 2gether again, cuz iz realli fun n happy, hahax.
you're my first <3
8:35 PM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Y iiz Life S0 B0riin?
2dae beri sianx, nv go out. at first wan go wif ws, ym n sum guyz 2 jn de bbc dere, plae basketball de. but lust min dun wan.
i wan go dere cuz i dun wan 2 b at hme, go dere at least cn b wif fwend. but dey all playin basketball, i wil b damn xtra de if nv plae, so dun wan go lorx.
haiz, but tuudae dunno y gt so many show. den watch frm mornin until afternoon, all so niice. ghost de show gt many tuudae, tuudae nite mayb cant b able 2 slp le. hahx.
haiiz, nw kinda of regret makin so many earhole, cuz beri bu fang bian.
kip on makin on dose ear hole de.
i slp oso muz slp side wae, cant make 2 dose ear hole dere.
den my ears n noes gt sum sort of zhong larx.
den when eatin dinner, accidentally hit on my nose de ear ring. den drop off.
my nose de part dere bleed so much siiax larx, den stop it. damn tia siax.
den nw du wuteva ting oso muz b xtra careful le. haiiz.
you're my first <3
4:01 AM
Monday, November 20, 2006
FUN DAE SIAX TUUDAE
2dae beri happy, haf grat time wif wei shan tuudae.
we mit at prime den go 2 sch cuz i heard frm jolene dat mayb tuudae cn noe the postin result dat we go 2 wich sec 2 de class. but go sch check, haben, so we go pp awhile b4 goin 2 cp.
when we go pp, we went in 2 cheers, den both of us feel lyk drinkin beer. we at first tot iz 0.5% alcohol. den we try our luck, take the beer n pae, den the cashier dun allow. we step out, saw yu shan n her auntie. ask help frm her auntie 2 help us buy, but den duno y the cashier noe, den oso dun allows her 2 buy. den we was 2 ask her auntie 2 go ntuc 2 help us buy de, den she go awae, sibei diiaox siiax.
den when we go ntuc, we kip askin stranger 2 help us buy, ask 5 0f dem, den the 5th agree. stil the 5th 1 best lorx, nt lyk other. hahax. we bought le den we go koufu find ck n mr paul n drink b4 dem, cuz at first ask dem help us buy, dey dun agree, sae sinful. hahax. we go koufu n try 2 open the cap, but cant. den we go drink stall dere, den i fake sae, 'faster larx, kor kor wan drink le', we mean mr paul n ck.hahax.
dat person sae we so smal, drink diz. den mi n ws fake say iz our kor kor wan drink de, hahax.
we drank the beer at pp, den many ppl look at us, hahax.
den we take the pp bus 2 cp 2 make ear-hole.
go le we go 7-11 buy drink den i go watson c the straighten hair de tingy, cost $30 niiax the cheapest. i bought the cheapest de, cuz later no money 2 make ear-hole.
we go 77th street make.
rich dere the person ask hu wan go first, den ii anitin, den ws so scare dat she kip pointin at mi n sae ii go first, den ii anitin lorx. tot lyk ant bite onli, but quite painful siax. i didnt kry or shout larx, i kip calm n lyk gt laught. make 3 le, den the auntie sae i go rest first, let ws go. ws funny siiax, i laugh until stomach pain. the auntie onli make the mark onli, den she kip sayin, 'wait, i scare'. den she lyk wan kry wan kry, den when auntie was goin 2 make the hole, ws push her hand awae n sae, dun wan, i scare pain. den dat time at 77th street gt many ppl ,all look at ws, den gt sum boi make fun of her, sae , 'pain ah pain ah, i scare, i scare', den ii was laughtin lyk mad. we held each other de hand tightly larx. her 1st hole, she kry abit. den after her turn, iz my turn again. the 4th 1, wich iz the highest of my ear, beri pain siiax. den dose auntie sae wut the ear nt pain de, infact beri shiok, i make le, so damn painful siax. den tears drop, den auntie sae iz naturl de, sure wil kry abit de. hahax.
after we make our ear-hole, we shop around larx. hahax. many ppl look at us but we hack cre. den we go sculpture park awhile, den go back cp. tot late le den we go bbc. go dere awhile later rain, den we go hide at 1 buildin. den saw fran dey all, den lyk plae at the rain awhile, deb fran n her fwend went back hme, left mi n ws.
rain until beri heavy but we stil kip playin at the rain. we went pp after dat, den walk le, saw wei qiang den he sae dat ws mother findin ws, den we kip hidin. hid quite long le den we go at 1 roof-top garden, den plae awhile. den ws sae she wan go hme, den we go lorx.
end of my beautiful fun sae tuudae le, hahax. :p
you're my first <3
3:42 AM
Sunday, November 19, 2006
SUEY
Haiiz, tuudae beri sianx siax. i oso nv go out even i reali wan 2 go out tuudae.
ii wan go out de, but kor almost all my close fwend le, but all of dem sae dey cant or dey later gt go out wif deir family.
ii realli lyk haf no true best fwend lorx, everytime oso liidat, ii wan go out but no 1 cn go wif mi..
ii feel reallii sad lorx.
haiiz..
ii kip dreamin dat ii haf lots n loads of money lorx, cuz my wishlist:
1. haf money 2 reborn/ straighten, highlite n treatment my hair cuz my hair nt straight, beri curly n ii hate iit
2. haf many many money 2 shop 4 clothes ,shoes n jewellary
3. make 6 mre ear hole
all tiz ii realli wan 2 duu lorx, but ii no money nw, n at holidae mst difficult 2 earn money dex. sad siiax.
tuudae nv go out, so ii stae at hm, i online frm the mornin n mayb until midnite later bax. ii update my fwendster le, waste bout mre than 2 hr doin dat. den download song n go c other ppl de blog n so on larx, tuudae beri sian jiu dui le.
n 1 ting beri suey, ii was playin the comp whr i kip shakin my leg. n my feet hit on the sharp end of the table n bled until omg lorx.
bled until i almost no mre blood le, quite pain but ii still beri fine larx.
haiiz, ii so suey siax tuudae.
n ii m tinkinn so many ting. haiiz.
you're my first <3
3:45 AM
Saturday, November 18, 2006
My Dae
After went changi airport, suppose 2 go out wif sheralynn de. but at lust min she sae sry, dun wan le, cuz she tired, den nvm lorx. i oso quite tire n i doze off in the bus, so cant blame her. cuz all of us woke up 2 early le tuudae.
den we took bus go hme. rich hme once login 2 msn, hui xuan ask mi wan go bbc mah.
she sae long time nv go le, n she wan go.
den i oso quite bored at hme, den anitin lorx.
suppose 2 mit at my downstair dere de bbc, den go pp 2gether. but den i wan go rivervale mall de arcade c clara dere anot first, cuz i wan find her. ytd n tuudae kip korin her hp n hse phone hundred times le, but her hp iz off. n when i kor her hse phone, dunno hu sae bath, den gt reason s nt at hme, went 2 fwend hse n sumtime nv pick up the phone. i gt so irritated, my patience iz beri poor siax.
went dere le nv saw her den went 2 pp wif hx.
we went pp buy ting eat tiz all larx den go bbc.
but at bbc nutin 1 do, den chat awhile all tiz.
iz bored larx, but i rather b bored wif fwend den goin back hme.
go pp again, bought sumtin 2 eat n went back again.
i tried a experiment, put the mentos into a bottle of coke. ppl sae iz poisonous n wil die, ytd tried it wif dhana n ws, but no 1 drank, i wanted at first, but dey throw awae. den tuudae i try again n my result was, nutin wil happen. i b guinea pig, i drink le oso nutin happen. stil fine n alive, hahax.
den when i left. saw sum guys rich, hahax, so zhun siax. we left, dey rich liidat.
iz i beg hx many time den she stae until 6 liidat den we go.
hahax.
so suey siax lorx, ytd i go treatment my hair, tot wil b straight. cuz jonie oso liddat oso so straight. at first straight, but once i bath, den curly back le.
nw i mayb earnin mre money 2 mayb straighten or reborn again le, hope iz a sucess bax. haiiz, i so hope dat i wil have straight n beautiful haiirx..
you're my first <3
3:06 AM
Ryane L3ft L3.. Sad.. :'(
Tuudae wake up at 4.30, change clothes diz all le, den went 2 meridiam lrt n waited for jolene bout 15 min. den at 5.45 we 2 saw each other den kor taxi.
we took the taxi 2 changi airport, den bout 15 dollarx larx, cheap siax, tot wil b mre exp. den we rich dere le, saw no1 we noe de, den wonder around. even took the skytrain 2 terminal n walk walk at dere, but many shop close le, so bo bian. den jolene bought a cup of capp n she drink finish le den we go back terminal 1.
went in 2 the toilet s jolene wan 2 go, den toilet crowded wif so many china kid wich we saw at the skytrain b4 dat.
in the skytrain dey look s if first time dey take train, stil gt ppl shouted n hold each other hand so tightly, den i turn 2 a corner n laugh, cuz iz realli funny.
den at the toilet i gt so fed up dat i keep diaox at dem, wan 2 beat n scold dem siax larx. cuz i heard dem sayin 2 another dat ' singapore liddat de, our country nt liidat de lorx'. confirm iz sae singapore de bad word de.
den i diaox at dem. so many china kid kip lookin at mi n jolene de clothes, den i saw deir clothes, lyk dey beri poor, dunno fashion de. all no own style de, den c dem i gt so irritated.
but after dat went out n go 2 mit ryane dey all, den told hannah dey all.
den dey sae shud b4 of dem sae china wuteva oso, i oso agree. cuz deir country realli ......... no offence. lolx.
b4 ryane go off, took quite lot of group photo. den he leave dat time, i almost shed my tear when i saw joey kry oso. but i control myself cuz i noe n blieve dat 1 dae i wil mit up wif him again.. S00n, 1 dae.
you're my first <3
2:56 AM
Friday, November 17, 2006
Luv All Ya
1 Word 2 Describe tuudae feeliin, SAD!!!
haiiz, Ryane ;eavin tml le, ii tink 2 australia. sad worx, but ii nt goin 2 kry, cuz ii noe dat 1e1 wil renioun one dae, ii blieve. after 5 years, we wil still remain in contact n we cn mit 2gether, riitez guyz?
but tuudae iz the lust dae of sch n 2 feelin 2 describe, happy n sad at the same time. happy cuz ii hate study n sad bcoz ii miis my luvin teacher n my darlin fwendz. haiiz. lust dae of sch but i nt goin 2 shed a drop of tear, cuz iz stil nt the end of the world.
NO MATTER HW 2 PERSON IZ, IT IZ THE HART WICH MATTER MST.
1 of my fav quote, itz true. if 2 person r so far awae frm each other, the mst important ting iz stil deir hart, 2 rmb each other. 2dae pass the 1e1 photo 2 let ppl sign, but sum nt dere de ii nv ask yet, haiiz, shud earlier ask dem 2 sign mah, so cn rmb it well.
1e1 iz the class wich i mis so much, i luv tiz class so much even though i dun lyk tiz sch larx. but our class shows unity n care. we r bond s family n we r so close. but i hate sum of them larx wich realli make my life worse de.
but aniwae, hope dat even if 1e1 r separated, our hart wil stil haf spaces 4 each n all of us. coz no matter hw far we r, we r still 2gether.
you're my first <3
5:19 AM
